Today is our 5 year anniversary. I have been thinking back on all I put Jim through 5+ years ago. Poor guy, I was very scared of marriage. I loved him very much, but in the back of my mind I kept waiting for him to leave, and subconsciously, I kept pushing him to leave. There's not one marriage in my family, in my lifetime, that has lasted or that has been a good marriage, so I was very afraid to fail.
But here we are 5 years in and going strong. Every day I love him more. Every day I get a better look at just how big his heart is and how greatly he loves. I don't know if he wakes up in the morning wondering how to make my day better or if it just comes naturally for him, but not a day goes by that he doesn't make my world a better place. Honestly, I've said it before and I'll say it forever, Jim is a much better, kinder person than I am, and a great example for me on how to love. He's not only an amazing husband, but he's also an incredible father. Awhile ago, I was in another room, but I could hear Jim with the boys and tears just filled my eyes because of what I heard. How grateful I am for the man I married because I've never known a better father.
Jim, you are my heart and my backbone. You are my best friend and my favorite EVERYTHING. I love you with every thing that I am and every thing that I have. Thank you for our beautiful boys. Thank you for our wonderful life. Thank you for every day that we have together. Thank you for loving me years ago when I know it was hard to love me. Thank you for fighting for us when I didn't know how to. Thank you for taking a chance on me when I wouldn't have. Thank you for every moment that we've had the last (almost) 6 years. But mostly, thank you for still loving me and making it so easy to love you.
I love you and I always will. Always.